Saying goodbye...

It seems I hardly knew you, and now I have to say goodbye.

It's ironic that i almost told your grandparents last night. Something told me not to. I'll probably tell your grandfather later, but for now, I don't think they really need to know.

From when I saw your heartbeat, it started to feel real... And now it's not. I was looking out on the web for different things to start getting your life off the ground, shopping for baby clothes, looking at child safety seats... And when the babytobee lady called the other night, she had no idea what to say when I told her to please not call again, since I just lost the baby. She was silent for a minute before she just said "sorry for your loss".

I don't even know if you were a boy or a girl. All I have are those first ultrasound pictures. At least I have those.

They're taking me in for surgery shortly. They want to make sure there aren't any complications.

I've been crying all day on and off. Your father has been wonderful. He's been that shoulder to cry on, getting things for me when I needed him to, bringing me the laptop so I could write this...

I wish I didn't have to say goodbye.

Goodnight, baby. Flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.


[Piggy:] Saying goodbye, going away
Seems like goodbye's such a hard thing to say
[Kermit:] Touching our hands, wondering why
[Both:] It's time for saying goodbye.

[Scooter:] Saying goodbye, why is it sad?
Makes us remember the good times we've had
Much more to say, foolish to try
It's time for saying goodbye.

[Gonzo:]
Don't want to leave, but we both know
Sometimes its better to go

[Rowlf:]
Somehow I know, we'll meet again
Not sure quite where and I don't know just when

[Floyd:] You're in my heart, so until then
[Electric Mayhem:] It's time for saying goodbye.

[Fozzie:]
Somehow I know, we'll meet again
Not sure quite where and I don't know just when
You're in my heart so until then
Wanna smile
Wanna cry
Saying goodbye