Why does this continue to hurt?

Okay, emotionally, I get it. My hormones are going ape shit right now.

Physically, however, I discovered over the weekend I hurt more than usual.

Since about week 8, I've had issues with my pinky being somewhat painful to bend, and my left hip felt like it needed to pop. I sit indian-style all the time anyways, so it's not that I haven't been stretching it all along, but over the weekend, I was using the "Miracle Ball Method" to try and stretch out the hip joints and see if I couldn't "encourage" things to go back into place. I'd seen all kinds of things on the net about how women who are pregnant get things like round ligament pain and such.

Thing is, the stretching seems to just have made it hurt worse.

At the same time the emotional stuff also got worse, so it may well be hormones surging back, but I don't think so. My temps have been sticking to the lower end of the range, not the upper end, so I'm thinking it may not be a hormone surge. I don't know.

I just know I hurt. Inside and out, to be honest. My pinky finger hurts when I bend it again, and my hips now both seem to hurt... And over the weekend my entire emotional state was that of "basket case".

Part of this can probably be attributed to the "strep" I got late last week (the doctor never tested for strep, just gave me antibiotics. That one's a story for another day, since I was significantly irritated that not only did she ask me what antibiotics I wanted instead of actually weeding things down to what should be given, and rushed us through because we were the last patients of the evening, but she NEVER ASKED ME WHEN MY LMP WAS OR IF I COULD POSSIBLY BE PREGNANT. That's important, considering the last three times I went to visit them I *WAS* pregnant, and had to tell them every time. Oh, and apparently their system thinks I'm allergic to tetracyclines and Ambien, even though I'm NOT allergic to tetracyclines and I've never TAKEN Ambien! Again, I digress). I had a throat infection that I'm now taking Levaquin for. I was running a mild fever earlier in the week, but was fine by the weekend. I spent most of the weekend in bed.

But I'm feeling extremely lonely inside my own body right now if that makes any sense. My system knew something else was there, and it's not now.

I must have burst into tears multiple times all weekend. I thought it was that I really didn't have anything to do but focus on it, but Joe made me get up on Sunday, and I was still having issues coping with it. He took me to Costco at one point and I proceeded to have to whiz past the aisle with the toys for kids for christmas (after picking up a present for my niece), and then at one point I was just standing in the baked goods section waiting for him, and I just got more and more upset. He at least saw it and came over and gave me a shoulder, but I just couldn't get my system to stop.

I need to talk to my neuro. When I spoke to my OB earlier this week, she said that for the focus/depression issues I should talk to him and see what we wanted to do with this. I have had shit for brains for the last few weeks, and it's getting noticeable at work.

I need a nap. After a weekend of sleeping a lot, last night's sleep was worth diddlysquat. *sigh* Resorted to a Benadryl and still couldn't keep it asleep.

I wrote Karen today to ask her about the hip pain and see if she didn't know if there was anything I could do about it.

I'm actually hurting like flu-like effects today. I'll see if I can't sleep it off tonight.

If I'm still feeling this way by Thursday, maybe it'll be a good excuse to leave the in-laws house early... I really don't know how much I'm going to be feeling like hanging around.