*sigh*
After having some very promising HCG numbers for the last few weeks, my numbers took a nosedive this week. So baby #2 ends his (I say his, I don't know why) brief stay in this world.
It's not quite hitting me as hard this time, although I may just be numb at this point. With the first one, I saw a heartbeat. She was alive, she had a heartbeat, I *saw* her. With the second, I never got a chance to see him. When I went in for the ultrasound yesterday, he was already gone.
I still need to go see a pulmonologist. As I am discovering, I seem to start getting asthmatic issues as soon as I'm pregnant, so I need to talk to a pulmonologist and see about getting things straightened out before we try again.
God, this sucks. Who the hell did I piss off in a previous life? I don't deserve this, dammit.
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